You are now 2 years and 7 months old, nearer to your next birthday than your previous one. But you are still my dear sweet baby girl. This update is a few days late because it’s so hard to sit down and gather my thoughts coherently these days! Even now I’m typing this with one hand while feeding your brother.
What did you do this month? You celebrated your brother’s first month, attended Isaac’s baptism, listened to the SCO with Sophia, watched Elmo in Sesame St Live, celebrated Reuel & Alex’s 3rd birthday, checked out Octoburst at the Esplanade with Asher and watched excerpts from The Nutcracker with Auntie Fifi.
You are going to start school in January and your father attended the orientation talk this month. When asked, you say that you are going to school to teach the children their ABCs. I hope you will enjoy school and make lots of friends.
This month, you continued to assert yourself in ways that either make us want to laugh or cry. When you are good, you are so very good: you are sweet and loving towards your brother, you look out for your brother, you are independent, you are funny, you are helpful, you are full of “thank you, mummy”, “love you”, “sorry”, “be careful” and “wear your seat belt, mummy”. And when you are bad, you are terrible: you shout, you throw things (sometimes at people), you tear things, you are rude. you say things like “I’m angry with you! Hmmph!”, “I’m not talking to you”, “don’t talk to me, I’m not listening” and “go away”. Sigh. It’s really challenging, especially when I’m home alone with you two.
I know you are testing limits, pushing buttons and seeing how far you can get your way and with whom. You can be so stubborn and I guess that runs in the family. It’s not always easy to say no to you, especially when you look beseechingly at me with your big eyes and long lashes. But I’m stubborn too so we clash repeatedly and we need your father to step in and rescue us. I shudder to think about the huge fights we will have when you are a teenager.
Sometimes I forget that you are not even 3 and that some of my expectations of you are not realistic. We are both learning and I’m doing my best to be a good mother so be patient with me. Try not to grow up so quickly! Already I see you shedding almost all your baby-ness and I miss my little baby girl. But I know there’s so much more to look forward to and you continue to surprise me every day.
Remember that I love you dearly and that is one thing that will never change.